Just a Random Engineering Student’s Thought

Seriously, sorry for grammatical error. Aku tak pandai sangat English even aku dah belajar English since darjah 1.

This is going to be long but I don't know whether people would like to read it and discuss it. Because when I talked about it among my friends, they don't give any fuck. Some of them surely give some good reply. But most of them is like,

"Kita tak boleh buat apa pun kan?".

And I am one of them. Yang say the same thing.

So end up I chose to speak here, even I know there are no people reading this long essay.

I'm a Malay guy. Just a normal Malaysian. Yang kadang-kadang bajet cakap English, kadang-kadang cakap bahasa sampah. Tak. Bahasa 'sampah' ni bukan Bahasa Melayu. Bahasa sampah ni 'uto fuck cibai kote aleuto and such. Malay is a beautiful language. But some people love to speak that sampah language isn't it?

Enough dengan muqadimah.

Aku tak setuju sebenarnya dengan sistem peperiksaan.

Sebab benda ni bagi aku macam racun.

Gapo racun?

Kau orang pernah tak berkawan dengan orang yang dia study betul-betul, but he/she can't excel in exam? Yang solat cukup penuh, jadi imam surau sekolah bagai, but he can't get those 9A's, 11A's in SPM, can’t get 4.00 in the universiti yang orang duk megah-megahkan sangat?

Dan kau orang pernah jumpa orang yang dapat istidraj?

Istidraj ni term yang Muslim bagi pada orang yang Allah bagi nikmat, tapi mamat/minah ni lek je buat maksiat. Dia kuat romen, mencuri, tapi like tak ada musibah langsung menimpa. Orang kena istidraj ni biasa gampang cakap,

“Aku buat maksiat tapi elok je duit aku masuk bagai? Aku tak solat tak ada apa berlaku pun? Lek ah”.

Yes, that aleuto guys la.

Sorry kalau words aku pun gampang macam kerabat istidraj ni.

But yeah, I have these 2 types of friends. Nama pun kawan. Sebab tu terikut jugak kut bahasa kejap elok, kejap hrmm….

But these guys yang istidraj ni pulak yang kita pandang macam holy shit, mulianya kau, bagusnya kau, pandainya kau.

While those yang perangai baik-baik akhlak mulia kita duk pandang hina sebab, sebab SPM dia dapat 3A, tak ada A langsung. Dia tak layak amik course mainstream such as engineering, medic, accounting. Awak yang SPM rendah-rendah ni amik la course office management ke, human resource ke, multimedia ke.

Wai. Kau tahu, course office management dan yang seangkatan dengannya ni kau ingat gaji tak bagus ke?

Dan kau ingat kerja multimedia tak bagus? Kalau tak bagus, aku tanya kau, kenapa syarikat Marvel Studio, Warner Bros, Disney, Fox Centuries, depa berjaya je? Hina ke kerja multimedia?

Tak semua orang pandang kerja selain mainstream ni weak. But you got to admit yang sekarang ni kita ada double standard.

Orang pandai.

Orang tak pandai.

Dan kau kena admit jugak yang golongan so called ‘pandai’ dan bajet hebat ni view those golongan ‘tak pandai’ ni like cockroach. Hina. Busuk. Dan suka takut-takutkan orang dengan tiba-tiba boleh terbang. Okay lame joke sorry.

But that what happened in front of me.

Universiti aku, tak mahu mention ah nama universiti. Karang kena masuk lokap limitkan students to only have several credit hours per semester. Yeah memang logik kena limitkan credit hours. But the value of the limited credit hours aku rasa nonsense.

Dah la dalam buku undang-undang sembang lain, bila depan mata sembang lain.

Okay, satu semester dilimitkan 25 jam kredit. Tapi depan mata, oh, kalau dah lebih 18 jam kredit, you need to get permission from the dean. Okay jumpa dean,

“Berapa pointer awak?”

“Er, just 2.9 sir”.

“What? Below 3? How come your study become this bad?”

“I’m… not really sure. Silap saya kut. Sebab saya banyak main kut. Tapi saya nak cuba lagi elok semester depan”.

“Tak boleh. Saya tak boleh izinkan. Sebab pointer awak rendah. So saya tak boleh bagi awak ambik subjek tambahan ni”.

“Tapi sir, saya minat subjek ni. Saya nak cuba take this subject. Probably I can perform better.”

“Macam mana awak nak bawak. Sebelum ni awak ambil kurang 18 jam kredit pun awak tak boleh maintain pointer awak”.

“. . . . . . .”

Now soalan aku. Macam mana the dean know yang that particular guy can’t bawak the additional subjet? What is he? Adakah semua dekan dalam fakulti a fucking psychic? Dan sebab pointer rendah you’re not giving the opportunity for those guys/ladies yang nak cuba ceburi bidang dia minat? What the fuck?

Parent pun satu hal.

Ada kes kawan aku, she’s really into art. Yes the drawing like that Mona Lisa’s drawing and such. Aku tak tahu sangat those things sebab aku bukan orang art. But her parent was like, strongly against her.

“Kau ingat dengan melukis tu kau boleh berjaya? Tak ada masa depan tahu tak! Baik kau belajar pandai-pandai, score dalam periksa!”

Said her dad.

My mom also like,

“Angah belajar la pandai-pandai..  Biar lulus periksa, dapat kerja elok-elok. Jadi la engineer ke, doktor ke”.

I don’t understand. Kenapa these jobs je yang mentaliti orang lahir zaman 70 80-an ni nampak?

Dan this thing is racun because nowadays, people, the grandma, the mama, the young adults, the teenagers, the kids, macam tak ada matlamat lain hidup. Score periksa, get job.

Score periksa, get job.

Score periksa, get job.

Score periksa, good result, get job.

Bak kata orang tua, diorang dah hidup lama. Tahu asam garam kehidupan.  Kerja bukan senang nak carik. Bla bla bla.

Umpama kata orang tua adalah definite. Tak boleh salah langsung.

I don’t know..

I was inspired to write this because recently, I’ve been asking, is this really what I want to do with my life..?

I was that educated guy, yang score 9A’s dalam SPM. Go to university, did foundation and doing degree in engineering. And when I learn engineering, I start to wonder, why the F I took engineering.

“You salah amik course ke?”, asked my lecturer.

Yeah I did and what?

“Kalau you tak minat engineering, why you took it at the first place?”

Dan jawapan aku, because our community demand it.  Our community look that job like that the only job yang people should take. And my teachers at school pun tak pernah pun guide us to take what we love. In fact, Malaysian mana yang determined about their passion.

Cuba kau tanya diri kau. Cuba kau tanya kawan-kawan kau. Cuba pakcik makcik, dato datin tanya anak-anak, dia minat apa sebenarnya.

I asked some of my colleagues. Most them are like,

“Entah la. Aku pun sebenarnya tak tahu apa yang aku betul-betul minat”.

Aku tak boleh salahkan diorang. Sebab aku sendiri pun WAS like that. In the end aku chose engineering, which is sebenarnya aku baru sedar aku tak ada that full passion pun on engineering.

You guys, the pensyarah, the golongan ‘pandai’ surely will condemn me. Said that,

“Eh masalah kau la kau tak minat. Kau salah amik kenapa la fuck”.

Yeah, that’s is our country.

Yup. Our country. Actually this is about our country too.

Negara maju by 2020. Don’t give me that shit bila our young adults just work because they want to live.  Sara hidup Malaysia tinggi kan? What I’m going to say is, most of our student belajar just for sake of grades and works.

That’s why negara kita mundur. Masih guna teknologi luar.

For example, masih can’t make our own smartphone. Padahal berlambak student electronic engineering.

Kereta Proton pun masih dipandang rendah oleh rakyat sendiri. Padahal bersepah graduan mechanical engineering. But why we still can’t surpass big company like Toyota, Honda, yada yada. Dah bertahun-tahun dah Proton oooi.

Negara berpendidikan. But our technology still dekat takuk lama. Masih guna barang import. Psh.

You know why this happened? Because our student learn just for the sake of grades and jobs! Bukan belajar sebab they want to improve what we have now!

Semua benda ni appointed to Malays students la. Aku tak ramai kawan dengan Chinese or Indian. But aku rasa Chinese macam more kepada business even they’re studying engineering. Seriously.

Dan aku cuba kaji permasalahan ni. Dan ya, aku end up blame the system. Sistem peperiksaan yang racun pemikiran orang sekarang, yang men-double standard-kan rakyat.

Kau orang tak rasa kita macam tak ada pun kelebihan kita sendiri?

Sastera dan art kita dan tutup. Like that thing is not valuable at all.

Teknologi, bajet nak buat negara maju, while our students yang macam aku katakan tadi.

Lepas tu bidang hiburan pulak, meeeh. I don’t know why I always feel Malay’s movies so suck. Sorry producers. I just can’t get the juice of it.

Malaysians is actually lack of passion. Don’t you guys think so?